Starting to show

I can't believe how I woke up one morning and there it was-- my belly protruding out. It just blows my mind that a week ago my tummy was fairly flat and now it just pooches out. I am having a hard time dealing with that, mostly because I have body image issues. It is hard to accept a growing belly! I want the best for my baby so I am focusing on her (that is what I believe our jelly bean is) and her needs, but it is hard to let go of the image issues. I think once I look more pregnant and less bloated/fat it will be better...I just want to wear a t-shirt around all day that says "I am NOT fat I am pregnant!" HA! On another note I have started my internship last Friday...it is going really well thus far. Granted it has only been 1 day, but still I think it will go well. They seem open to my appointments and pregnancy, which is a great thing, makes me feel less overwhelmed on that front. I am also excited to see my OB on the 11th I think she is going to be great. It makes this pregnancy seem real. Other than that not too much too report.

Third Month Pregnancy Reflection

What I'm enjoying the most about my pregnancy so far is:
Not a whole lot at this point...other than being able to tell everyone and not keep it as a secret anymore!

The strangest advice I've received is:
Not really strange but would have never thought of it. Using a rubber band on your pants to hold them up when you can't button them anymore!

Names that I've been thinking of:
Not telling yet!

Girl or boy? I think you will be a:
I think it will be a girl, but almost everyone else says they think it will be a boy! I don't care as long as it is healthy!!!

The old wives tales predict:
That a fast heartbeat=girl! Which our baby's heart was beating 170-184bpm!

At my prenatal visit this month I found out that:
My current PCP couldn't let me have the OB I wanted so now I have to switch PCP again! So frustrating!


My hopes:
I am really just hoping for a smooth sailing pregnancy!

Hoping for the best!

So after my last entry about the whole PCP/OB mess...I have decided to let it go (well a bit). I contacted my new PCP's office today and she said she would talk with the doctor since I have already had all the appropriate tests and my records should be on the way if I could just be referred! Please pray that that happens! It would just make my life and stress level so much better. But if I am forced to go in I guess there is nothing I can do about it, I did all I could to make the situation better and that is all I can do. I fear mostly that my internship people will look down on me or something because I am pregnant and have to go to all these appointments. Sometimes these internships do turn into jobs...but I have decided if they are going to be rude about it (which they may be very understanding, I just don't know...I have heard stories about their low tolerance for interns having "lives") then I wouldn't want to work for people like that anyway! All I can do is take it one day at a time and remember that this IS A JOYOUS situation/occasion and I don't want it to be tainted by unnecessary worry. Now of course this is a lot easier for me to say than to do, but I am doing my best and taking it one day at a time. As my hubby always says: "How do you eat an elephant?" "ONE BITE AT A TIME!" So that is what I am going to keep telling myself! HA! Such a funny guy, my husband.

Dr Appts and Insurance Headaches

Where to begin, I guess the beginning. These last few days have been a nightmare in regards to getting an OB! The whole thing has been terribly stressful for me. I had an OB/GYN who I adored but practices 30 minutes away (which isn't the end of the world) but the downside is she would only deliver in my hometown. (which is not where I currently reside!) So I have been frustrated and stressed trying to figure out what to do?! My mom recently had an appointment with current OB/GYN and asked her to recommend several good names for me; which she did, stating she would send her own family to see them. This made me feel better and I decided to go see her recommendation, Dr. Kindle. I felt good about it and at peace for the first time in awhile.

On Tuesday morning I get up and call Dr. K's office to set up my first OB appt. I knew I needed a referral, but wanted to get it set up before I called my PCP to get the referral...this is when all hell breaks loose. I call my PCP and they inform me that they only refer to OBs in THEIR practice and not outside of it. GREAT!!! They are all men (which I prefer not to have!) and on top of that I am just being forced onto an OB...that makes me feel safe. For crying out loud this is my body and my baby and I want to have the right to choose!!! While the nurse and my PCP were very nice about it their hands were tied by this LARGE, TOO BIG FOR THEIR BRITCHES PRACTICE! My Dr {PCP} even called to see if he could use the loop hole that I wanted/needed a female OB...NOPE!  I really appreciate all his efforts. He is the best PCP I have ever had...I have never seen a Dr. go to bat like that for a patient! And even call me personally to talk about it. So anyway my only solution....get a new PCP who will refer me out to Dr. K's office! So I am in the middle of that process. Once I make the change it won't be effective until Sept 1st. I am hoping that my new/old PCP (because I have used him before) won't request to see me before referring me out to Dr. K's office!! Here's hoping...

Plus, school is getting ready to start for me and that is stressful enough without all this dr/insurance business giving me a headache. I just wish that when I discussed OBs with my current PCP that he would have been more clear about their policy so I could have switched everything around this summer while I was still off. Oh well, such is life. Who knew something so simply could become so complicated. But on a happier note I am 12 weeks pregnant tomorrow!!! Last week of first trimester here I come! Woot! Woot!

12 weeks.

Trying to do better...

2008-08-06

I am the worst journal writer in the world! I so desire to write down all my thoughts and feelings so I can remember them. Not only for this pregnancy, but just in day to day happenings. Somehow I just put it off and put it off and the next thing I know 3 weeks has gone by! I mean I think I am busy now, wait til the baby comes!!! Journaling is my New Year's resolution every year and every year I screw it up. At least there are some entries!

Well onto the pregnancy... Tomorrow I will be 11 weeks! Yay! I have been "morning" sickness free (knock on wood) for about 1 week now! Can I get a hip hip hooray!! Hopefully the end has come!?! I have still been fairly tired, but again I am ALWAYS tired even before I got pregnant and then there is the whole new puppy thing that adds to my sleepless nights! What was I thinking?!?!

Anyway I am excited for our next appt. on Monday...It will be our first "real" pre-natal check-up. I am also going to ask to be referred to an OB. I have one but she is 30 miles away, bummer, because I really adore her, but just not feasible.

 10 week bump shot...still not really showing yet. :(

I want that cute bump already.

It is crazy to me how fast this is going at times. It seems like only yesterday I took the test and here it is August! Well I will try to be better and post more often, but with school starting I wouldn't hold my breath! (look excuses already ;) ) HA!